Monday, December 27, 2010

The End is the Beginning

Hello World!

This is my first post on my new Blog, about me, my life (both past, present and a hopeful future), my adventures, and my dreams.  Through this little page in the great WWW, I hope to capture bits and pieces of my life and share it with others.

As a beginning, I must state several things about My Complex Life (MCL for short).

First, I was born and raised a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  I love this Church, I don't always agree with it and some of it's policies, especially towards the LGBT people of this world.  I served a mission to South America, where I loved the people, the culture, and my time there.

Second, I'm currently married but separated (part of MCL).  She is such a warm, caring, loving individual and you are going to ask yourself now;  Why are you separated?  See point three

Third, I am Gay!  I have struggled my whole life as an LDS member to "control, suppress, and change" who I am!  I cannot.  I have accepted who I am fully, and after a lifetime, I'm working on loving myself fully.  This of course is a huge part of MCL so far.  It has been a burden that I have carried because of my love for Jesus Christ and my Heavenly Father.  I have accepted that I was created in His image, and that He created me, a Gay man.

Fourth, in accepting who I am, I have "come out" to my family, friends, co-workers, etc.  I have found a group of beautiful gay friends who support and love me (oddly, I also am getting great love and support from many Church members, my family, and many friends) for who I am fully.  I have met a wonderful man, he is kind, loving, warm, and caring too (I know, I've been blessed beyond measure).  We are working through MCL at this point as my wife and I navigate divorce and liquidation of assets that we share.

Finally, for this post (I know are you wiping your brow and saying "whew" also?!), I am happy, truly happy and wholly happy for the first time in my life!

So there you have it, the beginnings of My Complex Life!

PJ